Losing My Way

I seem to only write about Cock now, and today will be no different. I am glad whenever I think about sucking cock, though I am sad that I have no cock in my mouth. I have to put it in my mouth. hmmmmmmmm..........cock.

I was walking and I didn't know what to sing/ but I kept singing & started thinking/ thinking about sucking cock/ (repeat last line 3 more times for dramatic emphasis as I think about sucking cock/ rubbing my cock while thinking/ just thinking...thinking about/ thinking about sucking cock)/ Sucking cock I really wanna suck a cock/ (two more times as I slide beneath the covers/ 1ad feel my hand stroking my cock as I keep/ thinking about sucking cock really really/ really really really wanna suck a cock)/ Then he says 'Bitch that ain't enough/ cuz I'm gonna fuck your as/ gonna fuck your ass I know you want me to/ I'm gonna fuck your ass//////

I'm gonna take it up the ass/ for Jesus/ I'm gonne suck some Cock/ for The Lord/// God made me how I am/ so I must thank Him/ by getting naked with my man/ & then feeling his arms/ wrapping around me/ & then feeling his cock/ & I'm making it hard/ & I just gotta have a taste/ so I lick his Cock nice & slow/ then I say 'This is for The Lord/ & I put the cock in my mouth/ suckling cock for The Lord//// Then he says 'Time to pull down your panties/ Jesus says that I should fuck your ass'/ O yes yes yes for Jesus/ You've gotta fuck me for Jesus/ Fuck me Fuck me Fuck me Fuck me/ Fuck me Fuck me Fuck me for Jesus/ Fuck me for Jesus///

I want to celebrate Cock today and every day really. Just thinking about another man's penis makes me tingle inside!!! In fact, I w0ill use the wonder of the internet to go look at homosexual porn, see some Cock and imagine myself suckling and getting fucked. I shall reteurn, but first I touch my cock for luck. ...a nniiiice long touch..... Well that was much harder then it should've been. I will have to spend some time finding a gay porn site and disabling safe search. Like I'm a 7-year old, not a responsible man who wants, and can handle, to see naked men...oh yes I could handle a nice cock. My, that's so clever I touched my own cock, and I think I will touch my cock again. Why, I was actually holding my cock, giving it a good squeeze while I was thinking about Cock. Allow me to demonstrate: first, imagine a penis and grab my cock with my hand. Penis imagined, my cock will be grabbed as the cock I imagine is in my hand then in my mouth........... then up my a

& the blood shall run/ & we shall sing/ Heaven is ours/ for all we shall kill/ & the blood shall run///

Will you love me tomorrow since you don't love me now? Is there to be no end to my pain? For your love I endured your madness and for that I was driven insane....

I had to write something, anything, just to know I could still put words together, whether they make sense at all. Should I try to avoid using the word penis? I really shoud but I CAN'T. Gotta talk about cock, in my mouth, up my ass, o sweet cock I want you so bad... Why do I do this? I feel my penis getting hard and I want to touch it, even in the public place I'm in, and I'm compelled to let it rub against the bottom of a table and now my hand must reach down and...NO DON'T...o but YES I needed to sqqueeze it. I want to think about a naked man the next time I hear Atom Heart Mother by Pink Floyd, and how I kneel before him and take his cock in my hand, lick his manhood before I put it in my mouth. He is the master I long for as I masturbate, hard as the cock I want up my ass. O Lord, it seems all I dois write book reviews and queer fantasy; my brain can only handle gay porn it seems like. WHO could make my dreams come true? Will have to stop doing this.