Losing My Way

Here am writing again and I am very excited to see naked men having sex with me and I think about sucking cock really well; that would be fun since it could lead to getting my ass fucked FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED¡¡!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O and I wanted to be so good and only be all literary and on the second day I am writing about Cock and how much I need to get a hold of one and put that cock in my mouth. I say good man will you recite my new poem while I suck your cock? So he recites my poem as I put his cock in my mouth. I like penis cuz I'm a genius/ I want one up my ass/ a nice cock up my ass up my ass UP MY ASS//// I want a nice cock up my ass////// Fuck my ass and soothe a troubled soul///// I think of your cock as salvation////// Hallelujah o Jesus watch me suck a cock////// that will soon go up my ass///// I feel like a genius//// when I get fucked up the ass////// I am a genius so Fuck my ass///// I am a genius so Fuck my ass///// hard to say that with a cock in my mouth///...

I didn't write one word in February. I played piano and performed a couple of times at Gingko's and saw lots of movies. It has gotten to be a habit: seeking out old movies to watch, sometimes picked out just for the title or a certain actor. They range in quuality from rotten to sublime, like the one I saw today. Green For Danger, with Trevoor Howard and Alastair Sim as a Scotland Yard inspector; it was worth watching just for Sim's performance. Anyway, I will try to write more often. I only wrote this because I was too tired to read but not tired enough to sleep, and extremely annoyed by some witless music. How often it is that the bad brings something good.

On the day the world ends/ there will be lots of games/ & people will dance/ & all alone in a dark corner/ someone cries someone cries/ all alone in a dark corner/ someone cries///// No joy in these tears/ only bitter pain/ memories of a love/ he'll never see again/// Peace o peace the end has come/ no more need for tears/ Rejoice! The end has come////

Up here there are no troubles/ up here I feel no pain/ W0hen the show is over/ and my guitar's been put away/ the world comes rushing in/ 6seking vengeance/// Forgive me Lord/ for all I did not do//// Up here my heart's not empty/ up here I'm touched by grace/ When I am finally alone/ with no sound to soothe me/ the world comes rushing in/ seeking vengeance///

I seem to only write about Cock now, and today will be no different. I am glad whenever I think about sucking cock, though I am sad that I have no cock in my mouth. I have to put it in my mouth. hmmmmmmmm..........cock.

I was walking and I didn't know what to sing/ but I kept singing & started thinking/ thinking about sucking cock/ (repeat last line 3 more times for dramatic emphasis as I think about sucking cock/ rubbing my cock while thinking/ just thinking...thinking about/ thinking about sucking cock)/ Sucking cock I really wanna suck a cock/ (two more times as I slide beneath the covers/ 1ad feel my hand stroking my cock as I keep/ thinking about sucking cock really really/ really really really wanna suck a cock)/ Then he says 'Bitch that ain't enough/ cuz I'm gonna fuck your as/ gonna fuck your ass I know you want me to/ I'm gonna fuck your ass////// yea fuck my ass/ I want you to fuck my ass/ FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK/ FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK/ FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK MY ASS!!!!///

I'm gonna take it up the ass/ for Jesus/ I'm gonne suck some Cock/ for The Lord/// God made me how I am/ so I must thank Him/ by getting naked with my man/ & then feeling his arms/ wrapping around me/ & then feeling his cock/ & I'm making it hard/ & I just gotta have a taste/ so I lick his Cock nice & slow/ then I say 'This is for The Lord/ & I put the cock in my mouth/ suckling cock for The Lord//// Then he says 'Time to pull down your panties/ Jesus says that I should fuck your ass'/ O yes yes yes for Jesus/ You've gotta fuck me for Jesus/ Fuck me Fuck me Fuck me Fuck me/ Fuck me Fuck me Fuck me for Jesus/ Fuck me for Jesus///